10th Jan 20

Dear Diary,

Today I am bloody tired again! I feel like since I started working those are my two kids, a zombie or an almost dead zombie (at least I am a cute zombie!). Today I was thinking about discrimination. People discriminate a lot. Worse, they predominantly discriminate against features which cannot be chosen. Such as race, gender, sexual orientation, age and so on. If people condemned wrong behaviour, then I would have an easier time understanding, even if I find it isn't our job to judge others. But no, people love to make others feel bad about situations they cannot change. One of those things is addiction and mental health illness. The worst is that we do it very often actually. How many times did you look at someone and thought, 'oh my gosh, how can that person let themselves become so big or so small?'. Have they ever thought that maybe those people do not want to be like that, or even if they do, that there is a reason for that. If I ask around me what they thought about people that self harm themselves, they would probably say that they need help and support to get better. Well, overeating or under eating is a form of self harm. Who in their health state would like to strain their bodies to the point that they do not work well anymore? Exactly, no one. That's not to say that mental health is always responsible. I also find that ignorance will also lead to bad nourishment. Both of these reasons are not something to make fun of. A lot of times addiction and mental illness come together. So next time before you judge someone based on their addiction, think about all the fight they go through every day just to stay breathing. I gave an example of food addiction, but you can also use it for alcohol, drugs and so on. When people need help and are at their most vulnerable and lowest, they just need someone to be empathetic and to not judge them. They need someone to try and understand them. That can make all the difference. I hope I can be that person for someone.
P.S.: I am still reading the veil diaries. It is so good! I do not want to go to work tomorrow just so I can stay reading it