7th Jan 20

Dear Diary,

Today I had a soft day at work, and because of it, I felt really upset. It is silly but I felt like I didn't work enough since I wasn't tired enough. Aren't we made funny? What we learn as children stays ingrained in us even in adulthood, which makes me question how much of our personality is due to our parents. There is this saying where I come from, that everyone will become their parents at some point. I never believed in that, I always thought I was my own self and they could not influence me at all, regardless of how hard they tried. As I grow up, I start to see that that isn't true. Yes, I am different from my mum, but my core values are the name. I believed in respect, honesty and loyalty above all. And even though we have very different opinions when discussing different topics, those opinions still come from those same core values. For example, my mum feels like now a days people dress in a shameful way because they show top much skin. I believe people should wear whatever they like because it is their body. They both came from the same core value, respect. She believes we should respect ourselves, and to do so, we should cover ourselves because the world doesn't need to see everything we have to offer (she speaks in a funny way). I believe in respect, we should respect ourselves, and by allowing myself to dress the way I want to and feel good, I am respecting myself. So even though we seem to have very contrary opinions, they both come from the same core values, but because we were born in different times and in different places, those core values will rest in different opinions. That made me reflect and think of all the times I thought someone was wrong because they had the opposite opinion, when in fact we might have been arguing for the same side but having different meanings.
P.S.: I finally finished book 4! Can't wait for the 5th book to come out! Btw I still recommend this series 100%. At times it seemed like it dragged out, in this book, but the ending is worth it.