6th Jan 2020

Dear Diary,

So today I worked one of the murderous long days. Almost at the end of my shift, the senior staff asked me about what my mum cooked for dinner (they think it is funny that I still live with my parents and they cook for me and everything), I told her I didnt know yet. So she asked what I ate for lunch, I told her that it was a beans and meat food and that I didn't know the name cause mum knows the name (I know I am going into a lot of detail unnecessarily but bear with me). Another senior staff was with us, and she told me that I am such a mummy girl, and I said straight away yes.
Later when I was getting home, I thought to myself about the conversation and that's when I thought that maybe she didn't mean that as a compliment, maybe she thinks being a "mummy's girl" is a bad thing.
That situation made me realise that we take things as offensive or insulting when we use them as such. For example, because I always say that I am a mama's girl, and I am proud of it, I took that remark as something positive. However, if someone had told me I was fat, I would have taken that as offensive. So I came to a conclusion, that the problem isn't in what other people say but the opinions I have on that matter. If I learn to think that fat is not an offensive word, but just a word to describe a body physique, and maybe even a good word (because bodycon dresses look amazing with curves!), then I will embrace the word and wear it proud next time someone uses it. I think that's an exercise we should all do, we should take a word that we view as negative and make it positive, so regardless of how people use it, we will take it with pride and own it.
P.s.: I am still reading the same book since I was working the whole day, but I just found out that there is a 5th book in the series that will only come out in February so now I am annoyed that I will have to wait. It is worth it though.